adonis in blue

last night i listened to evil doing lines over the phone
and when he sighed and said my name
i realized he left me behind to save me
he loves me, he loves me not...he loved me.

next, a message and a vision in my dreams
"don't give up on me just yet"
doorways and openings
i thought it was the drummer but realized later it may have been the sailor,
when a new one appeared to me as both (but only as symbol, let's be realistic)
she asked if i was still writing and then tried to hook me up with her perfect much younger son
if only i'd known at twenty-six what i know now...

tonight is the night i pick a fight with the gods
i thought that, but then he remembered me and there was no longer any need...
content (at last) to spin endlessly around this moon
such a shame they choose to turn down the volume lest her song pierce their souls